If I was told the morning of April 25, 2011 that I would be abandoned by my [then] husband that afternoon, I would NOT have believed it.
So yeah, there was a very ugly argument in the afternoon. I was confrontational and utterly "doing the most"! <full transparency guys>
I fed and played with our precious, almost 15-month old daughter, then got her ready for bed. I put her down for the night and kissed her sweet cheek... totally unassuming that our lives had changed forever.
Mom called, as she normally did, and we chatted as if nothing was wrong. This was just the beginning of my "cover-up".
The awful truth was that I woke up on April 26, 2011 and was the only person in the bed. I quickly went to the garage to look for his vehicle, but in fact... it was not there. I checked the caller ID of the home phone... no missed calls. I checked the call log of my cell phone... no missed calls. I checked the text messages of my cellphone... nada from "Hubby"! And although the answering machine's display window clearly showed a red number zero, I pressed play anyway and was reminded... "You have no new messages."
He never came back.........(flat line).........
And "life" didn't care.
- I yet had to sing praises and usher in the Spirit of God every Sunday morning during praise and worship.
- I yet had to wear the "happy face" of the pastor's daughter.
- I yet had to "have it all together" for family that carefully watched my young, tender life.
- I yet had to feed, clothe, and provide for the most perfect being that was [and is] the apple of my eye.
- I yet had to pay Bank of America the mortgage on our newly constructed, 2800 sq ft home.
- I yet had to project manage a development team that allowed processing of international documents for thousands of online shippers each day.
I could go on and on about little-ole, imperfect me. But the real punchline is 3 simple affirmations you should recite daily...
1) I can make it...despite how dark the situation!
2) I will make it... no matter how negative the balance sheet!
3) I have made it... in the past and must regain faith, strength, and confidence for the current obstacle!
I John 4:4 "... greater is HE that is in you, than he that is in the world."
Isaiah 54:17 "No weapon [or bad situation] that is formed against thee shall prosper..."
My story is not your story, and your story is not my story. But HE can handle ANY story!!!
What affirmations move you past the hurt, shame, and/or disappointment? I would love to add them to the collection!
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